I MISS U LIKE CRAZY 

I miss you KD ... korben dallas ... i pray all is good for you wherever you are ... aamiin ...

THE GIFT

"Ibu ni hadiah daripada Hakim. Hakim ucapkan terima kasih sebab ibu jaga Hakim dari kecil sampai besar dan Hakim juga minta beribu-ribu ampun terimalah hadiah daripada Hakim sayang ibu..."

And my eyes was filled with tears .... thank you so much my love ... u means the world to me ... my doa is with you always ... 

Semoga anak ibu Muhammad Hakim bin Zainuddin membesar menjadi anak yang soleh dan sentiasa mendoakan ibu .... 

All of a sudden....

We have new office mate today... guess what his name is!!!!
Similar to someone I used to be very close...
Wherever you are, I pray that you will always be "di bawah rahmatNya..."
-------- DAUFDAMHA--------

Hakim turns three.....

this might be a little late.... his birtday was two months ago.... with his besday presents...

THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

He is now 2 years and 3 months old.. and... he is everything to me...
--- IBU SAYANG HAKIM ---

There must be a reason

For the reason that only Allah knows...
Too many miserable things going on... it is tiring when the someone you hope to rely on is the one making you miserable.... more and more...
Never ending journey....

Or shall I put an end to this????
Thinking.... really seriously of it....

I love him most...

Ada sorang budak nama dia Muhammad Hakim...

Dia anak baik, dia anak yang soleh...

Dia sayang ibu, ibu pun sayang dia...

Dia Muhammad Hakim, dia buah hati ibu...

Relationship...

I found this from a friend in facebook..... so true....

'Copy & Paste' is just another way to update....

Do you know the feeling???? When you just feel empty. You feel like there is nothing inside you… That you have cried so many times, you forgot the reason you were crying in the first place…
You have tried so hard to be good enough for everyone, but you keep getting pushed down…

I am very grateful....

12/01/2012 - I was driving to work this morning while talking to KD via mobile when I suddenly realized the temperature meter showed to the RED zone... Quickly got myself and my car out from the traffic jam... Luckily it was not too late... If I were to pass the turn, I would have been caught with a smoky car in the jam.... hihihi...

I feel I really need to put what happened this morning in this entry... Because this would be a way for me to remember the kindness, the goodness of people around me... a work colleague, the hiway 'ronda team' and most importantly a stranger you met on the road....

While waiting at the roadside... a Mr. Amin who was passing by kindly asked whether he can check what's wrong with my car... and yes... few problems were seen.. as expected since the scheduled service was long overdue... he even showed the nearest workshop to me... very very kind of him... i am very grateful... and, my work colleague drove me to work from the workshop... thank you...!!!

Thank you so much.... I am very grateful with all the help... And I believe there are always good and kind people around us.... Syukran, ya Allah... I'm blessed....

Have you renewed your Driving Licence????

Have you???... For those below age, you must first get yourself a DL before you can renew it.. ;)
Never mind that you may have been behind the steering for like one time... you still got to get yourself one ya..!!! ;)

To make the story short... the expiry date on your driving licence from now onwards will fall excatly on your birthday....!!! Why so??? So that when it is your birthday, you will always remember to give RTD a visit...!! :) Smart move????...

Well... to be someone involved on this project is kind of a new experience to me... I helped a little with the paper for minister, more on creating the method on calculating the loss to be absorbed by introducing this iniciative.... hihihi... when that method and sum was agreed by others, it was like smiling from ear to ear... and when being questioned... erkkk....!!!
And seeing the article that you kind of corrected before it was published on the national newspaper was also another new feeling....
Luckily not much issue after implementation... Else..!!!!

Guess what...!!!!

I have not been writing since last Sept...!!! How could I??? Was I really that busy..????
I had all written in my mind.... what happened... what's new... and so on...
The only problem.... the laziness.... when one keep telling oneself "I'll do that tomorow...."
And the tomorrow seems to be very very far away....

I wrote once that working here in HQ is not as busy as in State.... And I would like to take that back..!!! And I seriously mean it....!!!! More and more are coming.... And as always, I failed my time management...!!! Very badly....

Food Craving.....

We were on the back to home after getting some groceries from the store....
And aunt said.... "Teringin makan nasi kandaq la"....

And I was like.... how long has it been since my last nasi kandaq???... suddenly craving for nasi kandaq penang.... nasi deen at jelutong.... yummy...!!!! I'll make sure I get that the next time home... and pasembur and mee goreng and mee rebus at the padang brown.....

Penang and the food.... Hmmm.....

Introducing my new family member......

Welcome to the family.... Fatima Zahra.....
My first niece.... She is 17 days old today... Can't wait to hear her calling me Maklong....
I just got the chance to meet her last Sunday... And yes... Fall in love with her...
How could it not be when she is the "Buah Hatiku 2"....

By the way, Faiz is at hometown this whole week with Mak Tok and Tok Ba.... Miss him....
And the story-telling session before bed.... And he is always " Buah Hatiku 1".....

Humble vs the best....

I have to admit.... work in HQ currently is not as busy as it used to be when I was in State...
I was browsing through some other people's blogs last Monday when I realized that I have been doing nothing for more than half day already.... Believe me... boredom is unavoidable when you have nothing to do.... Not the whole truth actually... There was something to finish up, but I chose not to... Not that urgent anyway... Hmmm.... Sounds like me alright..!!!!

There was one sentence in a blog that reminded me of mine... It says...
"Maybe it is hard to be humble when you are the best....."
I tried to digest that.... Is that true?? Does it mean that if you want to stay humble you should never go for the best???

No wonder I'm just here...!!! Hihihi....

Thank you.......

Yesterday was the third time I attended "Perhimpunan Setia" here....

KP talked about raya holiday planning..... work arrangement, office saftey precaution etc... the normal stuff... he mentioned that he'll be on early and long raya holiday.... to spend more Ramadhan with his mother this time...

I guess the most interesting talk yesterday was the story told by P(L)....

Titled "Budak Nasi Campur".... on how a boy who was angry and dissatisfied with his mother ran out from home... a clear rebellious act... and how he then later realized that he was hungry... yet no money to buy food.... he stopped at a restaurant... peeking the dishes, tasting the dishes only in his own imagination...
The owner neared him.... "Are you hungry??? You can have anything you want to eat... Just choose what you want and fill up your stomach..."
Obviously, an offer the boy could not deny... Quickly filled up his plate, with many and repeated thanks to the owner....
The owner neared him again... once the boy finished up his meal.... "What happened to you? Why are you here alone?".... and the boy told him the whole story...
"Young boy, you have just met me.... yet you have thanked me many times for the meal. Your mother made you food, do your laundry and many things more.... How many times have you thanked her????..."

Hmmm.... Thank you Mak... Ma.... Ibu... Mummy... Mama...

Our loved ones....

Today is exactly two years since I lost my grandfather... Tok Ba...
And all the memories with him and with my late grandmother replayed in my mind...
Two people with lots of love to give others, in their own way...
Two people whom I'm very grateful to know...

Staying with my aunt now, we sometimes talk about the good old days...
How the grandkids were happy when Tok Ba was back home... for there were always something for us in his pocket... sweets, Kandos choc. etc..
And how we look forward hearing the ice-cream seller's bells... of course follwed by the ice-cream treat...

It brought tears whenever I think of them... The same tears Lina shed, when thinking of her late mum... Sorry dear I don't help you much... Be strong girl..!!!

Please.... al-fatihah to all the arwah....

Some time, not long ago.....

It is still fresh in my mind...... A year and two months ago.... while Adik L (who is now officially Adik P - BFull and D) and me were looking and searching for some friendly faces to start our stay in the new place..... lucky for us, someone offered an opening.....

"Hangpa takdak tempat lagi kan...!!! Jom la lepak bilik aku dulu..."

I just can't describe how relieved I was at that time.... I guess Adik L felt the same...

And that was how the bonding goes....

Time runs fast.... and to some it flies.... ;) A year and two months is gone.... All the things that we shared, the fun, the bitterness.... just too difficult to be described....

KD.... I still don't know what to say ;).... Thanks for being who you are.... For being someone who does everything in a very special way..... Your own way.....

What an eventful week....

How can I describe this week???
The working week started okay.... nothing much on Monday....
Tuesday was a public holiday... yet I was at work from 11am till 4pm... and by being there forced the JKR personnel to be there too.... hahaha.... pity him.... still.... "cik, blok D takder letrik lagi..." arghhhhh..... thanks to the contractor who was there till 11pm....
Wednesday started by being late to work... ended with movie with Lina... Thor.. the second time to me... and catching up with a friend on fb.... interesting conversation....
Thursday.... with my year 4 class.... hafiz got himself an FB account... how excited he was..!!!
Friday.... and there's the news.... officially with the letter.... argghhhh....

By the way.....
Adik L who turned adik B Full last month has successfully upgraded himself with D... so, he is now Adik B Full and D.... don't play play.....
KD got himself a nasyid group.... known as INTIM....
X-boss is now driving a BMW.... caya lah boss....

Late again....

It rained heavily this morning (and still)... and I'm late again for work.... the third time this month... dapat surat tunjuk sebab ler pas ni....
I can't stop feeling irritated with some drivers who only think of themselves.... it rained, everyone queued and stuck with the traffic jam.... yet, some drivers gracefully cut from the right...!! Why can't they queued up as the rest??? Everyone is late... don't just think of yourselves la..!!!

My recent post resulted in a call from a friend.... "Are you okay?? What is wrong?"...
Thank you ya.... Appreciate that... And yes, I'm okay now....