Listening but not hearing.... Looking yet not seeing...

Another class today... I chose to reach little bit late, since this lecturer normally starts her class a bit later... Only after checking emails (of course only upon arriving the classroom) found the message from her, class will start at 9.00am... arghhhh.... 30 min early instead...!!!

I was reading a book last nite and came across this sentence (more or less)... listening but not hearing, looking but not seeing... And in class right now at this moment the sentence became real.. listening to the lecture, yet not sure of what i'm hearing especially after the 'nasi ayam periuk besar' lunch just now... and a banana sponsored by a classmate...

Is it really hard to actually 'hearing and seeing'? Lucky enough if we can be fully heard during the story sharing session...

Thats what makes reading different then.... You can imagine, you can make your own assumption and you can choose when you want to read... Best thing is, you can re-read if you fail to understand it the first time... and repeat the interesting part as many times as you like...
So, enjoy your reading......

Do it right at the first time.....

My father's workplace motto was 'Do It Right At The First Time'... I always joked with him, right only at the first time meh..?? You can do it wrongly after that??? Then he would explain with examples and comparisons as always.... just like a surgeon or a 'tok mudim', it is very crucial that first time is done correctly, for the consequences if otherwise is unrepairable.....
There he won again... happened most of the times though..!!!

However, it is sometimes not easy to be done.... Not because you don't want to, but because of the difficulties you face while trying to... Quite frustrating right!... I guess, that is something common especially at work.... People say learn from mistake... Just like Edison, succeeding only at his 100th attempt, but through the journey he learnt 99 ways not to get the bulb light up...!!

According to my lecturer, efficient is when things are done correctly... while effectiveness refers to doing the correct things.... Efficient or effective then????... Hmmm.....

Back to school....

After 3 months enjoying the weekends, it's back to school today...

Woke up early, left home at 7am this morning to reach class on time.. (on time refers to being late of not more than 20 min...)

Half way on BKE, text came in... class will only start at 10am.... Arrggghhhhh... There goes another hour of sleep....

Feel something different with the class today. Coursemates are more comfortable, class was quite happy, responding to lecturer's questions (while on FB, of course) ... And, our monitor is back after being low profile last sem... Best thing is although started only at 10, class still end at 4.30pm... :)

If everything goes accordingly, this will be the last semester..
Will miss the class...

Being innovative....

Had an exciting, interesting, emotional week at workplace... It was all about how and to what extent some people will go in order to be great, innovative and success maybe... There is nothing wrong about trying to be innovative, but must that involves 'back stabbing' and 'bypassing'...?!!
And, it does not only revolve on who you know but more on what you know about who you know..!!! That's the secret to ensure you can have what you want...!!

Anyway, He is fair... We hear often, what you give you get back...
Being bad of me, hopefully I can witness that when the time comes...

To my friend,
I know you already have many colours in your life, just like the Paddle Pop Rainbow ice cream... So, let this be a spice which invite tears but in the end gives a satisfying feeling...

Kaizen or CIP...

In industrial zone, we called it Kaizen or CIP... In government, the term is KIK...
Nevertheless, both are similar... moving onwards to improve...

I spent the full day today attending the KIK groups presentation, as observer... One thing I observed, some of the groups are only addressing the symptoms not the actual root-cause to the problems.. The same comment made by one of the judges..

Addressing the symptoms is like taking painkillers to ease the pain but not actually treating the real pain... But, sometimes in life... painkillers is the only available and affordable solutions, where the real solution is near to impossible or too risky... There might be some way and He knows best... Pray...

Still remember when we were forced for Kaizen in Slr... Before and after photos... Limited cost (sometimes no cost at all)... and then comes the Functional Excellence team, with all DIY tools, jigs... not to forget the 'wayang'... presentation package to Intel...

CCS... still remember your jakuzi photo accidentally shown to Nora??? Hihihi... So, how's the jakuzi doing???

Dough Vinci, Tom & Cherry and The Alien....

Thinking of donuts yesterday, Big Apple... Luckily, my coursemate voluntarily agreed to accompany... I know she likes them too, so I don't feel so guilty making her drove all the way from Mahang...

So, there we were yesterday, bit dissappointed... limited choices of flavours... No dough vinci, no alien... only tom... hmmm.... should I just choose those available ones or should i come back some other day??? Took some time (less than 3 minutes..) to decide... Finally... Tom&Cherry, PinkPelican and Waikiki packed in the box... Hahaha...

And I got a feeling it's gonna be another visit to look for vinci and alien... hihihi....

Where we belong....

There was a phone call last week from someone from previous work... Unexpected one, asking where I'm right now since I've not been seen for some time... I used to bump into this older brother at the scan in area, share our hi and mornings and that's all... So, getting a hello from him was quite a surprise to me... But at least I know now that if I were lost or dead, there will still be people wondering, despite after 3 and a half months... :)

In life, there are people who enter our lives and then gone with the wind...
There are also people who enter our lives and left, but marked their existence uniquely that made them hard or impossible to be forgotten... And you'll treasure such persons for they are priceless -what they bring into your lives and all the sweet, bitter memories.

I used to have a best friend during school time. So close were we - wherever she is, there sure is me, that was how other friends described our closeness. Her favourite song was 'Nilai Cintamu' by Sudirman. It reminds me of her every time I hear this song.. We shared a lot, from all sweet it became bitter... Mended that but it was never the same again... How I wish I can find her again...

Most of the times, we don't realize which are we to others... Do we really need to know where we stand??? I guess not... As long as we are being our own selves, just let others make the call....

Feeling bit guilty.....

It was quite a day today... I have this guilty feeling, as I believed I have unintentionaly influenced a friend to do something which is not him... In a way, he successfully added his 'Stupid Things I Did' list with another item today... Not sure how long the list was before... ;)

Anyway, suffice to say, I learnt my lesson and I've added that in my Recurrence Prevention List... Whether or not I'll remember not to repeat is another issue altogether... Let's just not talk about that now... :)

Sorry... sorry... sorry....

Happiness....

I received a call from my aunt just now. Aunt by marriage actually, but being so close to her, she is also my confidante (to certain extent only...) And I'm a listener to her problems and I'm glad she is an open-minded type, whom I can freely voice out my opinions, tell her straight when I really feel she is on the wrong side....

Again, she is in some arguments (is not talking to each other considered arguing????) with my uncle... Again, for the exact reason which is not clear to her... I thought male will just let out loud what eating them inside, but I guess I've met few who keep it tight to themselves....

Not so sure this time what should I tell her... She's planning to seek help and advice from majlis agama and syariah lawyer... Should I stop her? Should I continue telling her to be patient?? That everything will be alright..!!! Just don't know....

Makes me thinking, will it be better to be happily alone or is it worth it to be living unhappily with a partner? Or you can always mix both together and be happily unhappy....

Hoping for the best for her.... InsyaAllah...

Buah hatiku....

For the last three days, I eagerly waited for the clock to tick at 5.00pm, so I can quickly go home to see Faiz. At 2years and 4months old, he is such an active little guy with all his jumping, running around, the small talkative mouth and not to forget the cute sweet smile of his....

Faiz being around keeps both my parents busy, which I like very much. It makes both lively, I can see the excitement and enjoyment in them especially when they excitedly telling us what Faiz has been doing the whole day... The routine includes ' tokba, jom pi ronda...' , on bike of course...

His favourite sports is of course football... already a fan of man u. He can already recognize the logo and has his own 'bola m u faiz', 'baju ball faiz' etc... and he supported argentina (during the fifa world cup - pronounced in his slang...). Cute of him.. And I like hearing him calling me, mak long, mak long.. :)

This afternoon, he'll be going back to KL back to his mummy... I know my sis-in-law must have missed him much. We'll be missing him here too... For all the joy he brings...

The Final...

Finally, World Cup came to the end. It's Spain, for the very first time if not mistaken. A bit disappointed though, since I was on Holland's side... And today is such a sleepy working day. All due to the final match (which only ended up in additional time, not 90 minutes... Luckily it was not till penalty)

The champion is already definite, but has World Cup fever fully over??? I'm sure it will still be the discussion topics among many, which game is the best, best player, best goal etc...
And also why top league players did not perform their best at this World Cup. At least, we know where Ronaldo's excitement was placed during this season..

Few cousins of mine kept buying and changing jerseys when their teams of choice lost. From one team they changed to another to keep up with the season. I think in the end, each of them collected at least 3 of different pairs....

I guess many will agree with me, the hero this season is without doubt Paul the Octopus...
Wonder what will happen to him now. Will he still be there next season? I got a feeling it's gonna be a different animal next....!!!!

So much to be thankful....

There is so much for me to be thankful and grateful for... Thankful for all His arrangement and plan, for the great people I have around me and so much more....

Last week was 'family and relatives' week... My cousins (of course with uncle and aunties) and I had a day-trip to padang besar last wednesday just to spend some time together. It has been quite a long time since I last joined a trip with them all. It was fun to be together. And yesterday, we had a small prayer at home, house was full with relatives. Feel good to have each and everyone of them here... Glad that they can spare their times. It all reminds me of what Chong used to say, more or less.... It is not where and when but with whom, which is important to enjoy the moments. (Chong's favourite sentence when planning for some outings... Thanks for volunteering as the 'organizer' ya!)

CCS aka Papa Kiwi, thanks for being my first follower... People say it is always the first that people remember. But of course I will also remember the 'Korean Actor' in FB... Hihihi....

The Full Story...

I met Lina this evening... It was supposed to be for Twilight movie, unfortunately both could not make it on time... So, we go for Plan B, dinner and chatting... Although I'm not so sure whether an unfinished plate of green garden salad is considered a meal. Anyway, that was all what Lina took....

I guess I can understand now why Lina was suddenly apologizing... The guilt and shock over what had happened is still haunting her. I felt guilty for accidentally reminding her of it. It never occurred to my mind she had just experienced something which I believed has a very significant effect to her from now on... Sorry ya!

And she kept telling me don't keep any hatred in your heart for we won't know what is going to happen next. We might just miss the chance and afterward, we'll need lots of courage to continue on..

We always pray for something, yet when they finally arrived we sometimes fail to realize... Other times, while busy looking forward, we didn't think carefully on the consequences that comes with what we ask for.. Are we really truly ready for it? It's all in His hand....

I have someone in mind whom I feel the need to ask for forgiveness.... I hope I have the courage to do just that and soon..

Apologizing.... I'm sorry.....

Out of sudden, Lina is apologizing to everyone via FB Wall. Makes me thinking and wondering... But of course, what she wrote there is absolutely correct. Sorry will only comes when your ego is put behind...

When someone apologize... for something that she said (for the very purpose of hurting you) at a very very odd moment (when you just lost someone you love) and then boasted to others that she intended to do exactly that.... and you refuse to accept it, does that make you a bad person???

Well... I was the the one refusing..!!! Bad of me ha..!! But, honestly it still hurt until today, and it is almost a year now... I know, I know...Very very bad of me ha..!!!
And yes, we are still not in talking condition.... Thank goodness we don't meet always....!!!

Hopefully there is still chance to remedy this....

Another weekend full with kenduri...

Again, my weekend was filled with attending kenduri. Yesterday, it was a wedding reception and today was an engagement.

The engagement today was something that has been delayed for about 3 or 4 years. InsyaAllah the akad will be on this coming December. Initially, the parents were against the relationship. I think it was on the groom-to-be side.... And I'm on the bride-to-be side.

The couple made it through despite some obstacles, showing and proving the strength of their relationship. Today is like a small victory to them. I'm sure they are both very happy that they've made it this far..

There will be more challenges awaiting them I guess... And I really hope they will continue to be strong together....

We can just do the planning

Last evening, I watched 'Back-Up Plan' - the one with Jennifer Lopez in it. It's all about a woman afraid of being left alone especially since she only has an old grandma with her. She decided to get herself pregnant, so that there will still be family later in her future. But then something out of her plan happened.... Okay, enough of the storyline. It is just a common movie plot with a Hollywood happy ending after all. Although I still can't understand the need to have the scene of 'giving birth in the water' in this movie. It made giving birth looks like a very very terrifying, horror, scary etc..... (but others might think differently of course).

Morale of the story is we can just do the planning, from the smallest decision to the most significant one, but of course Allah has His own plan for us.

On the way back home after the movie, listening to the radio, there was a short 'food for thought' session about happiness. Is happiness something that will come later when we get our dreamed job, or when we finally meet 'the one' or when we got the dreamed house? Must we wait to be happy? Or should we just enjoy and happily hold the current moment as it comes along? A friend of mine said he is currently 'happily unhappy'....

Well, the choice is up to us I guess...!!
So, choose wisely yeah..!!! And may happiness always be with us....

It's raining....

It started raining yesterday afternoon. And as expected the rain continued the whole day and night.. Just stopped this morning. The sun is slowly showing up itself again...

When it rained, especially in the early morning when the kids are rushing to schools, workers are rushing to work and not to forget, those parents who need to send their kids first before moving on to work, massive jams are unavoidable....

Driving in this situation is very stressful (not sure about others, but I sure don't like it...) Your eyes need to be very widely open... looking at the car in front, trying to focus while the wipers moving and at the same time glancing to the clock to check whether or not you'll be able to reach on time.

But still, lucky for those driving in cars... How about those riding bikes?? And school kids and others who still patiently wait for the public buses, with risks of getting water splash all over themselves.... Hmmm.... Be thankful ya!

They are friends...

After not meeting each other for about 2 years, it was so good to be able to meet, chat and joke with some old friends.... We have known each other for about 6 years now. We got to know each other while working in a factory in bukit minyak. I was so lucky to be in this team. Until now, I still think that was the best working experience I had so far..

Everyone is everywhere now.... All of the others are still in manufacturing line, while I chose another line very very different from what I used to do. Yet, I am glad that they have not forgotten me and glad that all of us are still keeping in touch.

Being able to gather, of course it brought us back to the time when we worked and had some fun together. All the activities... our bowlings (I had my own bowling dance too..), a movie (although I can't remember the title already...), picnic at sedim, round island trip, chan's house warming, raya visit etc... Those are memorable times, and yes they brought smiles to my face remembering... :)

I'm lucky to have them... they could made me laughed even after I was being scolded by the customer... They walked with me to face the customer and most important thing is the support they provided when I badly needed it...

To Chan, Karthi, Lina, Christine and Chong (arranged from eldest to youngest) thanks for the colours all of you bring to my life...